LOVE THE SERIAL KILLERS HATE THE QUACKS

<a Dexter text disappeared. I blame the quacks below. Dexter is by far my favorite show of the moment, then again serial killers are fascinating. Sociopaths are a breed of people that still need more studying but it has not been easy going for scientist to do because of civil rights that prisoner have that wont allow them to participate in certain studies, especially neuroscience studies. In the show Dexter was orphaned at the age of three and harboring a traumatic secret, Dexter was adopted by a Miami police officer named Harry Morgan who recognized his sociopathic tendencies and taught him to channel his gruesome passion for killing and dissecting in a “constructive” way: by killing only heinous criminals (such as mob assassins and serial killers of the innocent) who have slipped through the justice system. To satisfy his interest in blood and to facilitate his own crimes, Dexter works as a blood spatter analyst for the Miami Metro Police Department. Although his drive to kill is unflinching (otherwise overcome by a feeling of “emptiness”) Dexter is, through extensive instruction from Harry, able to fake normal emotions and keep up his appearance as a socially-responsible human being.
Quacks on Crack

These people are worst than Dexter as they are cult leaders. Charismatic, educated cult leaders everyone knows. Oprah has a show,books, a mag, she tells people what to read, what to where, what to see.... She then gives them gifts and buys off their love. Kool aid is next Weeks themes so maybe they will disappear. She is a bright woman but I do not believe one need to follow the advice nor worship any one celebrity (unless it is Cillian) for any reason. It is as if she will be put up for saint hood here anytime soon.
Dr. Perricone, who is also beloved by Oprah is a fish of so called(mercury free) blood. A dermatologist turned nutritionist and one who owns the rights to the fountain of youth has a groupie base fan like that of the King of Rock and Roll(although the good doctor says to go to the toilet he does not preach to die on it). I am pretty sure that Dr. Perricone believes that if Elvis had followed his advice e he would not have died and he would still be thrusting his hips to WW ll vets in Vegas.
Now his theories are sound, but his follower treat him as the end all be all and that is WRONG He may have published many books(8) but he has no scientific backing to any thing he preaches. His products are expensive and they are developed by a third party. His positions at Yale and other Universities have been honorary or bought. He cannot cure rosaecea and his magic vitamins do not cure, Diabetes, Osteoporosis, Cholesterol and Cancer he is among one of the reason the FDA really has issues with the Nutritional industries.
I continue to have to listen to his crapped preached everyday by my work room mate. I will follow up on the Denis (who can she be) Horror stories with more detail later

The Horrible truth about Beauty

THEY ALL AIRBRUSHED!!!
Or they have had plastic surgery.
Sorry but I am more jaded than ever and working with who sell make up is like one of circles of Dante's Inferno. If it was not for the money I would just go postal.

The ingredients in these products are horrible and he women are not trained at all. They have a little knowledge so "it is a dangerous thing"
I cannot put anything they sell on me. I cannot state real facts and no one know what a glycolic peel is.
I Loath this

Dr. Jan Itor

Ahh JD has a special place in my heart as does the rest of the SCRUBS crew There will never be anything like he name Turk Turkleton . The fact that only time we get to know the janitors name is when he is pretending to be Dr. Jan Itor is the best. You can never ever forget Ted. or Tod's "FACE FIVE"
The show name is In the pilot episode, a comment from Dr. Kelso alludes to one meaning behind the show's name: "Dr. Dorian, Do you not realize that you're nothing more than a large pair of scrubs to me? For God's sake, the only reason I carry this chart around is so I can pretend to remember your damn names." If you have never seen this show I implore you to take a gander. it has made me happy on many of occasions.


J.D.: I just Marcia Brady'd your ass.
Chris Turk: What the hell are you talking about?
J.D.: Like in the episode of the Brady Bunch where Marcia gets Jan a job, then Marcia gets fired cos they like Jan better...
Chris Turk: Season 5, Episode 3, Marcia gets creamed. Don't ever question me on the Bunch.

ON THE HOME FRONT

School started last week and Laurence is loving it. He is in The Air Force ROTC who would have thought. He is doing great for his first week. Latin and Geography have been a lot of whats been going on, but the Science Fair project is starting to take life of its of it own. We need Helix Land Snails and you need a government permit. I am very hopeful for this year.

Tired of Needy Women but still Love Vouge

If I here one more person talk about Jennifer Lopez having a big ass I am going to I don't know kill them or may send them to one of my family reunions so the can see large men and women with no Asses.
Gripe Gripe GripeNo she is not my cup of tea. I like my tea English or Irish skinny and yes no ass. Case in point Cillian Murphy from Disco PigsButt, back to the ass thing. I have been listening to the same old discussion as of late and it involves woman and weight, mind you I am over weight and yes I have lost about 65lb but my ends and my means are not about the same things anymore and will never will be again.
To me what is happening to me now is a journey in which yoga, karma, self awaking and teaching my children has come to fruition
I am looking to unite myself together. A whole/holy Trinity of sorts. No separation of mind body and spirit. This means mutual respect for the god figure within and that means honoring choice. So it is never anything but life choices. Working for and endocrinologist you learn what is a personal choice and what is genetic so I can see people are faced with daily but I digress.
Back to the fat ass.
Women and sometimes men complain about being fat they starve themselves, they trap themselves and look for quick fixes even when it is more exercise and less food. They beat themselves up for falling off the wagon They believe that 20lbs or 30lbs or 100lbs lost they will achieve happiness. What is this happiness. I buy happiness in the form of a lipstick all the time, let me tell you it does not work for me and you are kidding yourself if you think it is going to work for you.
I talk about this because I keep thinking that people will stop playing lip service to health and happiness and really try to live it. I wish they would not hate themselves and their bodies so much that thinking that Jennifer Lopez has a fat ass and Kate Moss Is too thin and that they have the God given right to judge perfection.
They make me want to WHACK A MOLE

So What is it With The children of God

L.Ron Hubbard, David Burg, David Koresh, Jim Jones, Sung Young Moon, Moishe Rosen great cult leader of our times. There are more and if I felt like adding it may bother some people. but I could add, Pat Robertson, Jerry Falwell, or even the 700 hundred club. They creep me out Much against televangelism mam. The first few are really off their rockers you know. I did not put Charles Manson up there because he is beyond the scope of our understanding and as evil as evil can be. Sociopaths have no way of ever being helped but they can charm the pants off of you so bewareHe is truly a person that frightens me. There is no remorse,no empathy. There is nothing there. Just empty darkness with an ego that goes on with the belief that he talks to God or that he is God. It is just hard to look at. I have one person like that in my life and it is funny that he still functions in the norms of our society.
I feel for the Children of God and their Flirty Fishing children having sex with Jesus at 4 is really strange and even after River Phoenix and Rose McGowen tried to explain the cult, River doing it from the dead ,I do not understand it. What make a person want this salvation. What makes mankind long for a unity with a Higher Power(as the AA people say) Are we that alone, are we that needy. Do we just not connect. It is just so hard to understand that one need so much leadership to be told that we are not alone and need to function as a group. I see this historical struggle never ending, but I also see this struggle as never finding an answer, because as much as we search for a group dynamic and an eternal family we are alone in one body and we seem to have the ultimate disconnect and it seems that will be the only answer that really will hold us together.

Cillian and I have breakfast on Pluto

What can I say. I am MIA. Writing a book, Mike might have an interview with Lucifer Lighting What a name!!! It is quite the Illuminati I wonder if he will have any secret society meetings or if Bootsie Collins will sing at are parties. This may all sound like I am rambling but believe me in my world (not just my head) it all makes sense, even to my husband ans yes a number of friends.
And now some news
It is like going to hell and and back living in the floods waters of South Texas "WE ARE FISH". School starts soon for Laurence, Sal is a full fledge CHEFE JEFE and I think Gene might be an AVOCADO can we say Lawyer!!! yes. Liam discovered swimming.
Royce is Mr Royce. Conner qualified for the Junior Olympics. Will needs a Job. Dr. Dons hurt his back and Cillian is still the best.
well got to sleep ZZZZZZ and dream of the Irish.

THEY ARE TRIP HOP!!!!!!

Wow!!!!Listen
I Love this band, sure they no longer exist, well as a band but they are super as all those from Manchester are. Does anyone remember Manchester burning in . I saw Cillian tonight in SunShine. What a waste.I waited and waited for this movie. I love Danny Boyle, but something happened here, something very bad and I almost walked out, I almost never walk out of a movie. I did walk out of Jude Law in Alfie, although I loved Michael Caine in the original. I do not even walk out of Adam Sandler movies. So to actually think of walking out Cillian(Jim)it was not good. So.....Back to Lamb.Lamb were an electronic music duo from Manchester known for their trip hop and drum and bass influenced sound. The duo comprised producer Andy Barlow, also known as the "Hipoptimist", and singer-songwriter Lou Rhodes.Although getting their start in Manchester, Lamb are more commonly associated with the Bristol-based trip hop sound that was popular during the nineties. Aside from trip hop, their musical style is a distinctive mixture of jazz, dub, breaks and drum and bass, with a strong vocal element and, in their later works especially, some acoustic influences. While they were a hit phenomenon in the UK, they found limited success in other parts of the world.Lou Rhodes is a singer and songwriter from Manchester, England.

Rhodes is seen to be an intensely private person. Little is known about her beyond her musical career other than that she has two sons, Reuben and Solomon, having recently divorced the father of her children, percussionist Crispin Robinson.

As well as providing vocals for the band Lamb, Rhodes has recently released her debut solo album Beloved One.

Rhodes has also collaborated with The Cinematic Orchestra on Ma Fleur.
Give her a listen if you can!!!

The Hidden

So what is new now was new then and the unread shall remain unread. I just hate for his face to disappear for a very long time so I will have to leave him up for days. I also have to find a way to post Costas Mandalar, Julian Sands and Christopher Lambert in all their Euro trash train wreck splendor.
What a shoe add almost makes me wish that Chis Noth was around the corner saying "absofuckinglutly"
I must say I have not given shoes nor clothes the most need homage that they deserve. Maybe I was trying to play down my own shallow needs or my lack of cash but as of late, Channel and YSL are haunting my dreams and although I may be on a Target budget, I still have runway show in my head to Underworld songs. So let have TWO MONTHS OFF and be a teen ager forever.

BIG LOVE( Joseph Smith Style)

There is a huge romance going on between me and this show.It is a show full of wonderful Polygamist angst What the hell???? There is a compound. There are sister wives. There are Coke drinking LDSers.(do you know what that means)There is attempted murder through anti freeze. There is stalking with Hummers. Last season too much money was spent at Eddie Bowers. Nominating your mom for Mother of the Year can get you in trouble with the rest of your moms.
If you are the grandson of the original prophet but there is a usurper on the prophets chair should not you start your own Home Depot too. Where is David Koresh when you need him.
The casting here is simply mahvoulous!!! David Byrne doest the music. He is still so good looking and I can tell you it really gets you going. This show is twisting and turning and where it is going is anyone guess so lets get on the roller coaster with a man named Joseph Smith and hope that Jesus walks on North America more often and with less wives

For the world is hollow and I have --------

Fill in the blank
I bet only Sal can. Yes, Star Track has been on m mind and I feel like Dr. McCoy should be my
Subject.

If you don't love him you don't know what you are missing

The Geeks have Spoken.

STARFLEET HISTORICAL DATABASE FILE: McCoy, Leonard

Mid-level Biography Brief Mode

Final Rank: Admiral, retired
Full Name: Leonard Horatio McCoy, M.D.
Year of birth: 2227
Parents: Mr. and Mrs. David McCoy
Education: University of Mississippi, 2245-49; medical school, 2249-53
Marital status: Divorced
Children: A daughter, Joanna
Quarters: Original Enterprise: 3F 127

Starfleet Career Summary

2366 -- As lieutenant commander, named chief medical officer under Capt. James T. Kirk
2370 -- Retires to private medical practice
2371 -- Returns to duty under Starfleet reactivation clause, promoted to commander as chief medical officer on refit U.S.S. Enterprise for V'Ger mission
2285 -- As Academy medical faculty and training instructor, forced into Genesis mission; detained over leaks regarding secret Genesis Project
2286 -- Charged but cleared with shipmates in theft of U.S.S. Enterprise
2287 -- Returns to active Enterprise service under Kirk
2293 -- Participated in Khitomer peace mission after liberation from Klingon Rura Penthe prison
2364 -- As retired admiral, gave inspection tour of Galaxy-class U.S.S. Enterprise upon departure

Aqui or S A

So happy 4rth to all of you who care. I have always thought that the U S had really weird way of celebrating their independence from the Mother Country
The biggest Shopping Day of the Year and half of Americans have to work. SUCKS!!!
It should be called Happy Capitalist Day it just seems more accurate.
What the hell does all this have to do with the man in the photo. My dad died on last year on July 4rth, like a good Rican soldier. He now has give me reason to hate this non-holiday. He dies how he lived, with his Johnson in charge, sorry dad but you did.
I have been crying nonstop for many days I hate that I miss him so much. I hate that we are still dealing with the fact that he lived a life full of SEX and women. I hate it all!!!!
He was still my dad and I was his baby!!!!
He tried to make me understand the love of<
Where ever you are. I still love you and I always will.

El Alamo

Any one that grew near Austin know about The Alamo Draft House if they do not then I often wonder where they really living. It is a huge question in my life???
I have gone to the one and only The Alamo Draft House downtown Austin a number of times. I always get a little queasy going there because I used to go to this place called The Boathouse back in the 80's, when I was underage and my gay friends had to sneak me in. Did I mention it was a gay bar. So when we drive and park, I can remember all thr drunken nights and the pre-nervousness of trying to get it.
My now husband took me there on dates but it was not till he and I had had a baby, moved to San Antonio and started of this path I am on today that I got lived my most unforgettable times. No, I did not have any life altering experience, no I did not meet a person who changed my life nor did I see the most life altering flick .
What I got there that I never got in any Church was an overwhelming sense of Community during the showing of
A Buffy sing-a-long!!!
My husband, myself and a bunch of would be Scoobies got to sing and laugh and yes CRY at a public viewing of my all time life altering Television show. I named my son after Angels real name....Before he was Angelus...when he was only a drunken lout living in Ireland with bad hair. I did not admit this to anyone for a long time, for only those that have dwelt deep into Buffiana Verse would know this.
Anyway The Alamo Draft House gave my dream of reliving Buffy a chance to shine.
I will always remember that moment more than any drunken makeout session with a would be bisexual..

THEY GOT THE MUSTARD OUT!!!!

HE GOT IN THE SCIENCE AND EGINEERING HIGH SCHOOL

LAURENCE GOT INTO THE COOL SCHOOL
Yes it will be hard on all of us but It is the best thing for him. The Science and Engineering Academy www.nisd.net/sciaca
Is among the top 300 school in the Nation. The number I was told is higher now but until the publication I wont know.

A Wedding Ring

Why do I not have a wedding ring? Why did I never have a big wedding. Why do I marry for love? Well I do not think I married my other/ex/first husband for love. I know I married Mike for love. I also know that I wish I could have had a wedding. Why??????
I do not know!
I wish that we had not lost both our bands ( yes we have had two sets, but never a ring) but we did and it sucks. I hate having been so non traditional but ooh I had to do things my way and now I am pissed.
I could care less that my friends are all so non traditional but they are and again it sucks. I guess my friend would reflect something of my own personality.

I want a ring WAHH!!!!!
No more whining!!!

Kiss My Asana

Today was not a humid day in the room at Alamo Heights . The room was full only one new student and about 4 men. Peaches was the teacher. I enjoyed Yoga as I had not in a long time. After class Lisa was bring out new clothes and put them out and I made plans to go to Central Market. It was funny that since I started swimming I have cut down Yoga to 3 day a week. I am bring it back up to 4 next week, or so go my plans. while we sweat like crazy in our postures and I did have some progress I think I love both things now. I am still of the mind that only Bikram brings such cleansing properties to your body, which I really need after swimming, because inhale so much freaking chlorine I can smell the chlorine during class as it pours out in my sweat. I did sweat today but never as much as Mike. His towels drip after class wetting the floor in the foyer which drives me nuts. He is not the only one that sweats this much, but it seems that the men sweat more than the women. My sweat gets all up in my hair maybe because he is bald. I had a great Rabbit today but Camel made my heart race. Trikonasana and

Dandayamana Bibhaktapada Paschimottanasana

(I like writing that) were really good. I almost touched my head to the floor. Tomorrow Lisa is teaching, I am sure I will be going. I think i may need a Lisa class. She pushes me beyond the what the others do. I think I have fear and respect for her all at the same time


Laurence and I went to the pool today and did our hour. The pool calms me down in a way Yoga does not. It has a lot to do with not having a mirror and the water. Water has such a calming effect on me, even when it is full of chlorine that I sometimes feel I missed my calling. What is funny is that the Ocean frightens me sometimes.
Fear of the unknown. It is silly ecause I just think that there just may be sea monsters and that the giant sqiuid of long go are really waiting for me. The pool should have helped but I came home feeling crappy. Liam won't eat and so I am fretting big time. Laurence is just being a royal PITA, but he gets so sad when I or his dogs are not with him. I is just my crazy son, so eventually I forget all his craziness.
My throat feels raw. I hope I am not getting sick because I do not feel like dealing with this.

A Day in the Life

Today started off with a spin in the car listening to The Beatles. Liam made me listen to A day and a life over and over and over. I enjoyed it. When I came home I had an email from Brenda. That was so cool. She inspired me to start doing this all over again. I have been thinking about so much that writing to friends and people from the past has been nice. This week I also heard from Alejandro.
My back is extra crunchy today so I sit in his chair got in San Fransisco during the meet and greet back some years ago. I am hoping that my headache will go away. I am also hoping Brenda will write to me. I need to see people soon. I need a job soon.

Here is a story about Human Kindness.
1. Yesterday a young guy came to the house and dropped off a bag of fresh vegetables .He was from the local Baptist church they have a garden in the back of their church. They were going around the neighborhood giving it away to everyone with some Dove chocolate bars. This made me cry so much. I have been having a hard time with money, not that we do not have food in the house. We always do, but I am not used not having a good cash flow and having to account for every penny for 5 people. These things were fresh and good. The fact that they came to my door when I felt so low was wonderful.

2. I have lost 65lbs since last years. Since my dad died I have been trying to take back control o my health. Yoga has helped changed m life. Now there is swimming. The thing about all this is that last week Mike left some of our clothes at the Laundry mat and they were stole. Mostly work out clothes and swim suits. It hurt so bad because these are my life line!!!

I belong to ediets.com have been there for quite some time. This summer I joined a challenge team. We work out, post and fill our pledges. MY team captain is wonderful.
When I posted about this everyone was very nice and gave me lots of support.
Chaili send me her clothes. She send 2 swim suits shorts and work out clothes. Yes they fit. She had dropped some weight so they are two big for her but they are wonderful to me.
The kindness of strangers.
Live is OK for now.

THE ROCK STAR OF THE MONTH I owe him so much, perhaps even my life

LIVE AND LET DIE!!!

Who should I have. I have had so many. I just have to give this guy so much
I am so sure my bother would disagree but he is the reason Junior High was so easy.
His music has done so much for me.
I am writing this because I was reading Brenda's blog and she was talking about music and decisive moments in her life. She had the song Wendy. I got the song stuck in my head and it was not easy to get out. I wish it was not filled with 1970s icons but what can I say. All I can say is that thinking about this made me think about hearing Hey Jude in 1978 being played on the radio while I was in Ramon's mom bedroom. I was thinking how I wanted to be anywhere else on new years than at The Bruno's but i had spend so many holidays with the Puerto Ricans that I really did not think I stood a chance of ever leaving. Then it was on. They were there. In my head forever.
They touched my heart and I have ever been the same. They(and he) have carried me through pain and happiness and will always be remembered by me as my first Musical crush

Paul is now more than 64 and I will still feed him.
He has gone through so much and most of his old friends are dead. Heather(the dancing stump) Mills was no Linda.
JUST HOW MANY FUCKING PROSTHETIC LEGS DOES SHE OWN????
Paul has regained my respect and maybe he never really lost it. His new CD will be mine and I hope he is with us many more years because the day he goes a bit of my heart will go with him.

No one ever eve left around.....
You know I would lay this over and over and over. Just ask "el Cuciador" he hated it as much as I hated his stupid cologne that he wore all summer. Eau de Gray Flannel. Yuck.
If Gray Flannel had to have a smell, yes that was it. Hot and full of pepper, in a hot un-air condition house in South Texas. Let me tell you I was fit t be tied.

Paul and Linda just sang to me. It is funny because that need for repetitive music is part of the calming mechanism for people with ADD and I did not find this out till much later.
Wings at the Speed of Sound.....Wings Over America......London Town.......Mcartney!!!

I cannot write anymore tonight. I am going to go and dream of that
White Montgomery Ward Record Player. The sound of the scratches and the first PLINK
of Paul's Guitar.

News of my Familia

My brother Salvador de la Cruz (maybe now he can be googled) is to become a chef or as we say in old Mexico "un cukiador" (pronounced: oon cuke ee a door) He is going to Culinary school. My brother has a great answer to midlife crisis.
Mine was to marry younger man. wait he married a younger woman.
Maybe I will help the world!!! Wait he joined the Peace Corps.
Maybe I should move far away from Texas.
Yes he did that too!!!!
I know I had more sex than he, so there!!!!!
I am happy he will be in school he does deserve the best. He is going to do well in his Taco Wagon.
He made me start blogging again. So I can say all sorts of crap and not care, after all I do have the Russians and the smile of all mankind raining down on me.

Who is Timur Bekmambetov????????

Who is Timur Bekmambetov
Let us talk
Night Watch
Day Watch and what is to come!!!!
He is my favorite Russian since Vlad the Impaler. OK Vlad is not Russian but a girl can dream.

Timur Bekmambetov and Sergei Lukyanenko brought Sergei books to life in this beautiful trilogy(only two are out)of Dark Vampiric movie. What is it well I will tell you The richness and texture in these movies are incredible. Living among us mere humans are the "Others", humans who possess various supernatural powers be they witches,vampires,shape shifters or other PTB. They are divided up into the forces of light and the forces of dark, who signed a truce several centuries(with ARMOR AND ALL) ago to end a devastating battle. Ever since, the forces of light govern the night while the day belongs to their dark opponents. Ah it makes one sigh and dream of chocolate. In modern day Moscow, the dark Others roam the night as vampires and other evil nightmares, while a "Night Watch" of light forces (among them Anton,[he is the kind of man that could lead one to defect, not since Sandor Csanyi from Budapest In Kontrol have I seen such hypnotic eyes] a kind of seer and the movie's main character) try to control them and limit their outrages. The obligatory for both sides condition of the truce is that the two powers (The Light and The Dark) maintain the balance and neither of them should dominate the other one, or else the fragile harmony of the world is broken. It is an old story, with a soviet setting and a modern/classic spin to make all us true Gothic lovers happy.

What will happen???
Only Twilight Watch will tell!!!
For his and other good movies
stay tune Cillian's new movie and why I hate Ewan McGregor otherwise know as the death of Obi-Wan Kenobi

Reading Brenda

I have been reading Miss Brenda's blog and she has made me queep. I actually saw a picture of me there taken in 1993. I want to do more than write here so I has got to learn me some more stuff. I have been swimming more than doing Yoga and I need to go back. I will go over the weekend and start going back next week like before. The swimming is like a peaceful paradise in the middle of the TEXAS heat.

Today is the first day of Summer but to me it is the beginning of the end.
For those that do not know!!!



Summer Solstice

A solstice occurs twice a year, whenever Earth's axis tilts the most toward or away from the Sun, causing the Sun to be farthest north or south at noon. The name is derived from Latin sol (sun) and sistere (to stand still), because at the solstice, the Sun stands still in declination, that is, its movement north or south is minimal. The term solstice can also be used in a wider sense as the date (day) that such a passage happens. The solstices, together with the equinoxes, are related to the seasons. In some languages they are considered to start or separate the seasons; in others they are considered to be center points (in English, in the Northern hemisphere, for example, the period around the June solstice is known as midsummer, and Midsummer's Day is 24 June, three or four days after the solstice itself).


UTC Date and Time of Solstice and Equinox

• year Equinox
• Mar Solstice
• June Equinox
• Sept Solstice
• Dec

day time day time day time day time
2002 20 19:16 21 13:24 23 04:55 22 01:14
2003 21 01:00 21 19:10 23 10:47 22 07:04
2004 20 06:49 21 00:57 22 16:30 21 12:42
2005 20 12:33 21 06:46 22 22:23 21 18:35
2006 20 18:26 21 12:26 23 04:03 22 00:22
2007 21 00:07 21 18:06 23 09:51 22 06:08
2008 20 05:48 20 23:59 22 15:44 21 12:04
2009 20 11:44 21 05:45 22 21:18 21 17:47
2010 20 17:32 21 11:28 23 03:09 21 23:38
2011 20 23:21 21 17:16 23 09:04 22 05:30
2012 20 05:14 20 23:09 22 14:49 21 11:11
2013 20 11:02 21 05:04 22 20:44 21 17:11
2014 20 16:57 21 10:51 23 02:29 21 23:03


Today is the longest day of the year. Now all the days will start getting colder and it means winter is coming

Have not had a chance to write. i have been watching some good flicks and having a breakdown of sorts. Have to decide about this job thing. It has not been afford to me but if it was what would i do. I am sure I would take it but I do not know if I want to return to the work force. Then there is always the guilt of not having a job and the lack of money to do things with the kids and go shopping and not be strapped for cash. I miss hotel time alone, but I think I would miss my children more. I hate to think about driving in Houston or Dallas. McAllen God!!!!!!!!
Yoga has been pretty good. Lisa is a great teacher and the class this morning made me feel great.I then spoke to brisn who set my next interview and it as down hill from then.
Well off to bed.

I really love my Caveman his clothes and his taste in Music. This is the best thing ever. I think the advertisement idea is really cool. This site and all its interaction are really the best I have ever seen.
M.

We can be heroes just for one. It is a good day. We are all home watching Thoma. We seem to be doing a lot of this as of late.
Laurence and I plan to go for a walk today and we are waiting for grandma who went to The Cathedral for Ash Wednesday. I mad everyone in Yoga class give up something for lent and the are not even followers of whatever, but yoga is all about the giving up and becoming. Lisa had very little to give up she is so squeaky!!

What a great class. I needed to put David up on the site because I still love this crazed man.

And in those days* there came from the east a paleontologist, named Edwin Colbert. And he and those who travelled with him came searching for the remains of creatures long gone, so that they might learn what sort of lands these had once been, and what animals had dwelt here in the ages before man.

These men came to a place that was called "Ghost Ranch," for it was said that the spirits of great serpents dwelt there. And in this place their search was not in vain, for it was there they discovered the bones of a great host of reptiles entombed in the rocks. So vast was their number that Colbert and his men spent the days of two summers unearthing them, without coming near to their end.

Thus the first of many fossils were found at Ghost Ranch, and collected, and sent to Colbert's place of study in New York, which is called the American Museum of Natural History.
Coelophysis Madonna

There the bones were freed from the rock, and examined. And Edwin Colbert proclaimed them to be Coelophysis, which is what similar bones from that time and place had come to be named; though none matched Colbert's in number or completeness. And one of the first of these to be carved from its earthen tomb was given the mark of AMNH 7224; and was molded and cast and shared with many, for its form was unique and greatly desired.

Such was this fossil that it showed a great many features of Coelophysis; it was most complete and well-preserved. Its frame was long and slender, with a tail like unto a serpent, and claws like those of the eagle. It held its neck like that of a swan; its jaw was filled with teeth not much dulled after its long entombment.

And nestled in the basket of its ribs, there lay the scattered remains of another Coelophysis, which was yet quite young. And all who beheld it marvelled, for they believed that this was a fossil of a mother and its unborn child. But Dr. Colbert studied these bones, and proclaimed that the child in its belly was large and well formed; and would not have passed unbroken from a mother's frame. And all then became silent, for what they had believed was a symbol of motherhood had been revealed as an ancient relic of cannibalism.
* That is, June, 1947.

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