Lost in love

Ever feel lost about true love. Do you believe as I do that a kiss is more intimate than sex. I harbor very few feelings of lost love. In other words men who I once loved, now that it is over I feel nothing for. Not sadness nor hatred, not friendship nor regret. This leaves me wondering about the exact depth of my feelings. Is it natural? I even lost a lover to death and I have never felt anything but maybe detachment. This is a matter that I have given quite a bit of thought to and still..... No answer