Wax and Wane

The hosiery baby died. My girl at work had a miscarriage she wasn't very far along but I know how it feel because I had one. Its tragic but she is only 22 and her whole life ahead of her. I can never tell her because this is not what one needs nor wants to hear when this situation arises. Only time heals all wounds.Its true!! No matter how trite this sounds I know it is true. Well at least it is true for me.
Now I know she has really good reason not to be at work and the doctor told her not to come in till Monday but the other girl called in ill and she just seems to be stressed from school.I do not think Kathleen is quite cut out for reality. I think she believes that her dream job of teaching as an ESL teacher will make things all honky dory but she has never taught and she is 28.
What it all comes down to is that I have not had any coverage at work for 3 days. I have been working double shifts FUCKING Tired!!!
So whats a girl to do??
Well I go between feeling sorry for them, then me then I get angry. There are things to be done at work that are not going to happen because of their absence. So I will have to ride it out.
So like the moon my moods will wax and wane and I will continue the cycle.
Thank God for Davardo (David+Retardo=Davardo) I am Monarded(Monica+retarded=Monarded)He is my long lost brother/sister. He is my makeup artist, a Chanel god of sorts. He is the kindest most decent human being I have met in a long time. He feeds me spiritually. He makes sure I get to work now that my car is broken and he makes me laugh.
He took me shopping after work. He bought some sheets. Mostly I walked around with him. It was nice doing this with a friend. I am glad we met

Cool and Collected

So I had a "Talking to" with one of my girls at work and it went well. At least hope it did. It is so hard to tell. This leader thing is interesting. I truly enjoy it!!!
Now I got a couple of cool sun dresses. They really feel good and now that my hair is short it all feels cooler. When I was talking with K at work I was sweating up a storm. I also noticed at PF Chang's the other night. I think I am beginning to sweat socially. Weird!!! I use a lot of exclamation points. Weird too!!!!
So tomorrow public transportation begins. I cannot even say bus, but we will prevail I know it. I will have to buckle down and save. It will be a long day tomorrow cause I am working 12 hours but Will survive!!!!!

Lost in love

Ever feel lost about true love. Do you believe as I do that a kiss is more intimate than sex. I harbor very few feelings of lost love. In other words men who I once loved, now that it is over I feel nothing for. Not sadness nor hatred, not friendship nor regret. This leaves me wondering about the exact depth of my feelings. Is it natural? I even lost a lover to death and I have never felt anything but maybe detachment. This is a matter that I have given quite a bit of thought to and still..... No answer

Death becomes her

So what do you do when people start dying or getting illness that are and could be fatal. If you are entrusted with such a secret it is very frightening yet an honor at the same time. To be held in such esteem by someone that you have known for an eternity and not know that you are still that important to them makes you wonder about life, karma and you place in it. I hope all goes well for my "friend" my heartaches at his burden that he has chosen to bear alone. He is stronger than I ever knew. I wish I could offer better explanation but I promised not to so I wont. I am just not good here.
Work is just that yet I still love my job. It is strange to see the dynamics of women working so closely together. To see the clicks and the cat fights. There is sch a high school feeling about the whole thing. I feel weird to have workers fighting over whether or I have a teacher pet or if one person is an ass kisser. I come from a professional environment and this is so insipid. Kathleen(the whiner) went as far to tell Marlana(the supposedly ass kisser)that because,Kathleen had lived in Europe she was better equipped to the one in charge!
WRONG
You tell me what one thing has to do with the other.

Well a broken car, the end of the school year and a new purse. I will post a photo as soon as I get one take.It is my dream purse. Well I'll be back

El Senor Grande

So why would I not talk about what the rest of America is talking, I am not as original as I once thought. I am not sure when I became so humble(ha ha) but I know when I am riding an American and maybe an international trend. I will say it took me 4 years to get on the trend. It was only the last season I watched that was not on syndication. Okay I will get to the point SEX AND THE CITY!!!!!!!!! THE MOVIE
I am so enamoured with this show even if I am married with kids and live in Texas. I have that connection with NYC that many people that end up living there do. Got to go more later... Well maybe its fantasy or an old dream but this city still has pull and thanks to shows like Sex and the City and Law and Older(with Chris Noth) I can talk like a native at times. In all the times I have been there I was only a tortist once the rest were work tripand dinner with freinds.

Tony Stark a man afetr my own heart

I found him!!! Such a wonderful thing.

So here I am still I am running around working and taking care of the kids. My department is rocking!!! Who would have thought I would be so alive in the world of hosiery. Of course being in love with stockings tights, socks, fishnets etc.... could be a reason. I have a huge collection of hose and socks. I also believe that my love of the esoteric leads to my love of this Job!
I only Anna Wintour would populerize then again

never know shis wearing red tighs here so alas we have a chance.

Speaking of chance I have somewhere this blog a drunk Ironman so I must find drawing. All I can say I loved Tony Stark and Iron man did not let me down
My brother and played Ironman with the kids that livd next door.
Little did I know then that Tony Stark was a drunken playboy, but eventually I figred it out and dated many men like Tony(without the mustache)My obsession with Super Heros has led me down the dark path of many a comic book store but I never dated a man that loved Batman or who was my own Peter parker till I met my husband.